Sunday, March 11, 2012

Open Sesame!

OH My Consciousness collides…

A sudden realization came to mind when I reached the gate of our house without a key to open it for me. It wasn’t in my bag just like nobody’s in the house just yet. So I called people whom I should seek for help. First thing comes to mind, my parents. I instantly call asking if where they are and just like that they will not be staying home tonight. So I called my brother who just can’t be reached. My sister and she’s still at work.

I waited… almost an hour while sitting on a landscaped rocks just next to the gate, blankly staring on my low bat phone which ironically been just helpful to keep me from hearing my mom’s scolding. There were neighbors passing by my ala music video setting. I just came from school laughing out loud with friends then all of a sudden I’m alone. Luckily, my battery saved its own life. I text a friend whose nearby and she came. She’s making fun of me because my text was just irresistible to ignore. It says, Dhet, jamming naman oh. Labas pa ako ng bahay. I laughed at myself too but not like I always did then I told her, I could’ve gone to SM and kill time.

What really made me wait that long? There were momentary silence between my sentences with Dhet. Like why did I even bother a friend to escort me in my lonesome time? This isn’t me that’s what I thought of after my sister came to rescue my pitiful pose.

My parents again called asking if I already got in. I had a thought. This might be the answer to my waiting… the reason why I hardly text my friends with petty things like that because I know they’ll interpret it as a joke for sure. Like there’s no particular someone who worries on my behalf or whose coolness has just been loose because this things makes him anxious even if I’m just one step closer to our house. So there, you know what I meant. There’s absence for his place.

Then I text that friend saying, you know what? if I have a boyfriend I wouldn’t have to cause ruckus to my sister, wouldn’t have made my mom mad just for an unseen key, wouldn’t have waited for a friend to make me not that pitiful waiting across universal road. If had a boyfriend, I would have the choice to get away even more excited to have that chance. It could have been a spontaneous date after he sent me home. It could’ve been one fun day to us. A share of large fries and coke would have been envy in a fast food chain.

Blessing in disguise, that’s how it should be but still after a year of reminiscing that day I must say it wasn’t a big deal to be scolded nor wait for an hour but what makes it momentous is that until now he’s not yet here. I would be glad to accompany him as well if he goes through crisis like mine, may or may not be as simple as waiting for the gate to open.

Indeed, simple things are most remembered that it even brought insightful turning point in one’s life.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

To Whom It May Concern

Dear Future Boyfriend,

Where were you last night??? 

Hmnnn... you know I still get shy. I’m sorry if I’m not used to being a “girlfriend”. This isn’t normal to me and you know the reason why. You were my first and what happens after that will be for us to work. I actually don’t know why you love me or isn’t it because I’m pretty?! Hahhaha 0.o

On a serious note, we’re getting serious right? Because I certainly am! Try not to so I’ll call my bunch of uncles then you’ll decide… aww NOOOO!!!

Until this day, I still can’t figure if I’m really ready for you. Back then you were just a complete stranger so bright that shows no face but now you’re here with mine holding on to our cheesy lines. Just what if you gave up too soon, I might have thought that my rare opportunity will be again snatched.

Thank you for coping with my clumsiness, childishness on you, on us. Try to understand HON, there’ll be more of those next time! You’ll maybe surprised if at times I’ll be calling you Oppah, I bet you've done a little research on me so there's no need to elaborate on that. Just in case you do care, don’t get jealous with my petty status or wall post that includes your mortal rival, Kim Hyun Joong. He’s my virtual happiness yet you’re my full packaged entertainment.

There’ll be times you'll be witnessing my tantrums, so please stay still and just don’t utter a word cause I’ll just make kwento once I’m through with it. I’ll sure get better if you’re just around making worry or cute faces that will instantly erase all negativities bugging on our dates. Though I used to say and you might already realize that I avoid intimate attachment and lingering touches, just keep your calm like you always do and maybe in time I’ll signal you with a dorky smile.

So if I flirt, please cooperate. (_ _”)\/

I like you and you know how difficult it was for me to admit. I didn’t know that you’ve known me so well. You've made me believe that I’m still a GIRL like everybody else. Did I just tell you that I would love a fruit salad with a ROSE?!? Obviously not on top of my favorite food and without thorns of course. Must not have, excessive perfume sprays or it will be a surprising sneeze.

I normally receive chocolates from generous-thoughtful-friends during Valentine’s but how come you’ve given me more than a box of love can contain. In my malicious state of mind how could I not noticed you coming, I was as surprised as my friends. Like who’s this guy who’s suddenly I’ve been sharing laughter with until the wee hours of the day.

As they say, who are you to invade my privacy? Who’s this man who’s as equally humorous as me? A man full of sincerity that can actually make me believe that I can be so pretty, confident and more happy. Enough of that darn insecurities because someone just can't get enough of my beauty. No more lonely days and empty chair during dinner because there you are available 24/7.

I’m truly grateful for your existence.

I think I already knew what God was thinking when he made you. ME.

LOVE YOU mwaauchh!

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